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Name: J.D.
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Birthday: 3/21/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: Christianity, Chess, Drawing, Writing, Psychology, History, and Camel Herding
Expertise: Pain Management.
Occupation: Grad Student, Security Dispatc
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AIM:  offduty44death
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1/28/2006
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| Look him up - he's in the Bible. And the reason I mention him is because I'm in a Masters program for Management and Organizational Leadership. And just in case you're too lazy to look him up, he sucked at leading. I don't have a Bible handy or I'd give you the exact chapter but look in 2nd Kings around chapter 8, I believe. If not, try 1st Kings around the same area. I think the Dems should read that passage too because a growing number of Americans are voicing what the Israelites said about 2500 years ago. And what did they say? Something like "Be nicer to us and we'll serve/follow you." Just in case you're very dense or exceedingly tired, Rehoboam said the WRONG THING and lost most of his kingdom. Come on, Obama! You're supposed to unite the United States! And Congress, pull your head out of your ass and start listening to people if you want to keep your insanely cushy jobs. You get paid a ton of money and perks to spend other people's hard-earned money. Your job makes the most spoiled of cats jealous and yet people are growing increasingly confident that cats could a) do a better job and b) care more about people. You spend more time praising your spending of our cash than you do doing anything useful. Want people to be happy with you? TRY CUTTING BACK ON THE TAXING AND SPENDING, DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH. Back to me. I'm learning about leadership and I'm enjoying it a great deal. I'm hoping that in the future I'll be able to combine my people skills with leadership ability to make a good...something. I have trouble picturing myself as a boss but I'm growing tired of idiots running the show, name a show and there's probably an idiot running it, and if nobody else is going to step up I guess it's up to me. I've got a long way to go but I'm excited to be discovering new things about myself. Apparently I'm an excellent speaker. To which I say...*grabs cape* BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Don your jumpsuits, peons, and follow me in conquering the world! Why aren't you donning your jumpsuits? Oh! I forgot to mention the cookies! I've got cookies! You get jumpsuits AND cookies! I've also been told I'm a good hugger and entertaining in my madness. And folks, I'm mad all the freaking time. I've also rediscovered that my voice carries really, really well. I don't have a super-deep voice but it penetrates walls like Superman's x-ray vision. Old women, nearly deaf and on death's door will tap my hand and say "your voice carries really well" and then I wonder if that's a compliment or her asking me to tone it down. Even when I'm being quiet my stupid voice is always being heard! All of that to say I've got a voice to public speaking. I used to hate giving presentations but I'm steadily growing to enjoy them because I've realized something I should have known all along - I love talking to people about things I care about. I love to inform people about fun and thought-provoking things. I guess I'm growing in my appreciation of the spoken word while continuing to hone my ability to communicate in the written. Trust is the foundation of leadership. A lot of Americans don't trust their government or their leaders - and often for good reason. Our country is weaker and our people are unhappy because we CAN'T trust our government. Support men and women of integrity in both politics and business. Demand that people act ethically, not just talk about it and demand it of others. This finger-pointing bullshit needs to stop - let the heads roll! If your leader is a sleezebag in his personal life you can bank on him SCREWING YOU. If anyone says what someone does in private or off the job doesn't matter please give them an incredulous look. Who they are at home is who they'll be in the office - who they are internally will surface and POWER amplifies, for better or worse, that affect. It's time to launch the zig for great justice! | | |
| I've been contemplating a return for about two weeks now and I'm finally getting around to it. I was waiting for something to really piss me off to put the fire back in my belly. Although there have certainly been some things that have irked me there hasn't been anything so aggravating as some of the garbage that happened during the summer and so my return was delayed. But I'm here now. So what has pulled me out of the dark? Nothing really but I'm sure I can find something to rant about. I've had a lot of "tee-hee" moments watching the news lately - Obama may literally be surrounded by idiots and they're the albatross around his neck. Am I delighted that he's failing? Yes and no, if I'm honest. "Yes" because he's an arrogant elitist who surrounds himself with "Yes Men." "No" because a) it's my nation he's tanking through indecision and poor decisions (which is worse?) and b) because I think he's a well-intentioned fool. Oh, back to the "Yes" category for a moment - he's a whiney bitch. Has there ever been a president so whiney and thin-skinned? Bush was kicked in the nuts daily and he chuckled back at us for eight years - BALLS-OF-STEEL. Obama? PUSSY. He cries foul over ANY criticism, legitimate or not, and if you're the President of the United States you can expect a torrent of criticism of both types. It's easy for me to talk shit about Obama, I'm not making decisions that can get people killed, but I'd like to think that I'm not the kind to hesitate on important decisions. The Afghan decision? Would have been made months ago. Iran? They'd be in big trouble - none of our continued pussy-footing. Korea? Probably still be ignoring them. Russia wanting us to remove our missiles? I'd have joined Poland for a photo-op of us laughing and flicking off a Russian flag. Diplomacy doesn't equal kissing the feet of bullies. Bullies: China, Russian, N. Korea, and Iran. How do you feel about all of the trade the United States does with China? I hate it. The government of China is oppressive and has a horrible humanitarian record but we're FEEDING that fat spider so it can become an even bigger predator. The West is making China powerful and China is in turn doing everything it can to a) continue growing and b) undermine the West. If you check out their voting record in the UN you'll notice that they vote against us and for ASSHOLES. They lock arms with Russia to protect dictatorial nations that thrive on suffering and exploitation. They are KILLERS. The intellectual "elite" of America are fond of whining about all our missteps while we allow China, Russia, and their pseudo-protectorates to oppress their own people. If a point value were assigned we'd come out looking like saints. It's stupid. It's nonsense. If I find anything frustrating it's that we've got viable solutions for cleaning up our country and aiding others but instead we hate ourselves, ignore the good, and consider "options" that have failed not only overseas but also in trials here in the U.S. (we've actually tried state-run health care at least twice - both miserable failures). I'm also sick of how corporate greed is bankrupting our nation by shipping our capability and cash overseas. We're a nation slowly becoming owned by a nation that hates us. A friend of mine was in China during 9/11 and while she cried over the tragedy the other student at her university CHEERED. The Chinese hate us because their government teaches them we're evil. Many in the Middle East are also poisoned against us by anti-West propaganda. And Obama approaches them with hugs and kind words. Our business pour billions into their nations for a quick buck. They're sowing the seeds of destruction. I've heard it has a metalic taste. | | |
| I've been feeling very antisocial the past couple weeks - so much so that even interactions through the internet are more than I'd like. I'm probably a tad depressed. This is my professional opinion based on not wanting to get out of bed in the morning and generally hating all activities I enjoyed only two weeks ago. Not to worry though - I've been through this forest enough times it might as well be named after me.
Poverty and obligations are the only thing keeping me from locking myself in my room only to emerge when I feel less like a grumpy and sullen bear. The kind of bear that doesn't roar at you for awakening him or stumbling into his territory but rather just stares at you sadly - which is your chance to make tracks before his moody contemplation turns to thoughts of mauling and how satisfying an angry outburst would be in the short term.
I've been playing a lot of Lord of the Rings: Online lately. The repetition of "kill monster, loot corpse, buy better gear, repeat" has been a nice distraction from adult pursuits like yelling and/or arguing with people over this or that. It's much easier for me to maintain a level of anger that energizes rather than drains when I'm acting as an advocate for someone but when it's my own ass on the line I tend to tire of the arguing and just look sick dealing with it.
If this keeps up, she's going to cap your asses on my behalf - promise.
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| So the options as they currently stand for me are a) retake the course with the same woman I've accused of bias (and who also happens to be painfully boring and a wording-Nazi) or b) flush my masters degree and two years of work. Somebody please remind me when I signed up for a ball-kicking contest and explain to me why it's never my turn? Argle-blarg!
In other news, Ted Kennedy is just about the only thing on the news. If he sat up in his casket and asked for water I could see how this might still be news but so far nothing about his status has really changed - he's still very dead. If he gets up and starts biting people put that on the news - I need time to load my shotgun. Otherwise, please move on and report on something important like how crazy the Middle East is - I blame the heat.
Consider this, you live in a very hot region where the sun seems to rise each morning just to flip you the bird - I'd be angry too. Add to this a lack of proper education and centuries of leaders pointing the finger at easy targets and you get angry people looking for someone's butt to kick. See that? I just summarized the crisis in the Middle East and why it's not going away.
Did you know that there are over 80 million slaves in the world today? Did you also know that Arab nations have been the leading consumers of "African labor" for centuries? While that doesn't negate the West's responsibility for being jerks to their fellow man it also suggests that "white guilt" is a product of disinformation. It should also be pointed out that "compromise," a very popular word in modern politics, is what kept slavery on the books when our nation was founded. We effetely shrugged and said it'd die out eventually which was proven wrong by its popularity in the South and an additional century plus of bigoted bullshit even after Americans killed each other to the tune of 600k+.
Compromise: sometimes you just need to grow a pair.
Speaking of growing a pair and compromise, are you aware that Saddam Husein was an on going problem we had multiple opportunities to nip in the bud but wussed out of? Have you heard of the Kurds? We let Saddam gas about 300k of them to death in the late 80's. Then he attacked Kuwait which just happens to have a lot of oil in it. And as soon as we pushed him out of Kuwait the Arabs said "get lost, white devils!" and our President, Bush Sr, caved to political pressures which allowed to continue killing Iraq's population in ways that make the CIA's interrogation tactics look like friendly hugs. And for the record, I hate that we use torture - I don't care what fucking information you get, torture is wrong.
Executions for terrorism and sabotage, I can get behind that.
But back to being weenies, we finally get around to capturing Saddam and people whine that we're hurting the people or Iraq - trust me when I say the death toll is down and getting blown to bits is a lot nicer than being tortured to death. What happened to the American people believing in themselves? I'm not saying we should consider every action right but for Pete's sake don't hate yourself because mistakes have been made - there isn't a nation on earth that is free of blood on its hand/head.
Let me stop again to point out that "weenies," while an insult or a crudity, is also a word and shouldn't be marked by spell check.
Moving on, the West needs to grow a pair because it's not being sensitive or repentant by blaming itself for the world's evils or a history full of mistakes. Guess what - we're still making mistakes. So discounting the good hasn't produced anything but a Western world that's lost its strength and is quickly losing the ability to provide hope and safety to people around the world. We're still a better option than most places but we're in danger of becoming just as bad - we're moving backwards. Liberalism and the Enlightenment are being lost. Their purpose wasn't to leave us dejected over our past but hopeful for a better future. We were the most advanced and civil nations in the world even with our mistakes factored in.
Trust me when I say that although Colonialism and Imperialism were wrong, they also brought advancements in learning and technology to peoples that were far behind us and who were already suffering beneath retarded, exploitative rulers before any white guys showed up. We just happened to be advanced exploiters.
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| Have you ever experienced so much frustration and anger that you could literally pump iron until your body can barely lift a soda can only to find you're still so pissed that not moving makes you want to violently attack anything within reach? I'm experiencing that right now. My diploma for my masters degree has been withheld. The reason? I'm 7% of a passing grade from passing a theology course that the professor described as "requiring effort on your part to fail."
Let's recount the ways I could have possibly passed this class. 1, I could have been given credit for the reading I did - interestingly enough that would cover the 7% all by itself. 2, my solid papers could have been graded by someone capable of reading. I make this charge because the major complaint on two papers was "Did you even read the instructions?" Which makes me want to scream "I PRACTICALLY HELD THEM NEXT TO THE SCREEN WHILE I TYPED THE PAPER" and then point out in each paper where I met each criteria. Looking at the papers, I cannot comprehend how I could receive anything less than a C unless the professor was purposefully trying to fail me. Apparently she misspoke - it required "effort on her part" to fail.
And despite how insane this is, her department chair backed her - even on giving me ZERO credit on the reading (10% of the final grade being reading completion). It's been over an hour since I received the email summarized as "tough cookies" and despite my best efforts to at least exhaust myself I'm still only moments away from injecting "fuck" between every single angry word that spills from my mouth. I'm about ready to lift a car into the air and scream until my throat is hoarse but this post isn't the work of a mindless goon. I'd say it's quite clear despite my barely contained rage. And yet I'm somehow too stupid to follow the direction in a syllabus where you have to TRY to fail. I also knew the difference between my degree and this kind of crap was writing two solid papers - and my bad papers are usually B's.
So why do I feel like I'm taking crazy pills? How is a B or better student in a MASTERS program at a upper tier school so incompetent as to get "Did you even read the directions?" on TWO papers?! How on earth does it make any logical sense to NOT see a problem with that scenario? Instead they're telling me to take the whole damnable class over again to the tune of another $1000 worth of studying I already did and hated because it was the most boring and poorly taught class I had there. Insult, meet Injury - Injury, please join Insult in raping Logic and Justice.
This is a "Christian" institution, folks, and although I recognize they're dedicated to quality over mercy I also recognize the lack of quality lies in them and has only served to deny me what is rightfully mine. I'm sorely tempted to tell them I'd rather get hit by a train than take a degree from their institution - which would truly be flushing two years of schooling but to have to crawl back to them and pay them to make me do all my work over again...I'd pretty much have to tell my pride, principles, and sense of justice to look me up in five months.
Honestly, I have nothing positive to say about that institution and if I wasn't potentially facing being stuck there AGAIN I'd name them. The only thing that school taught me was how to put up with bureaucratic nonsense and how to restrain myself from flicking off the idiots in charge - which means I'm primed for the military or politics. I need my degree for licensing or I'd just take it on the nose - I'd rather not have a diploma from a school that's hurt me in many more ways that just the ones chronicled here. This is just the icing on the Abuse Cake.
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