January 8, 2009

• Psychic Struggles

  Sometimes when I come back from working as a counselor I feel dead tired. I’m often confused by this because I don’t do anything physical (unless you count flapping my lips) and I can’t say my brain is working hard either. But the emotional investment and attention needed to be a good counselor makes me feel like a mage casting 7S stun spells (and for those of you not familiar with Shadow Run, that hurts like hell). It’s like I’m engaged in a contest of wills with an unseen foe that happens to share a living space with some poor soul who just wants to feel normal and happy for a change.

  Even the good days on the job are exhausting but at least my spirits are high. When you see someone overcoming the hardships in their life and starting to thrive inspite of life being a bitch it’s encouraging. When they start to hope again is only surpassed by realizing, often before they do, that they’ve become strong enough that they don’t need me anymore.

  But getting there…”I’m going to heal you to death”. I wonder if this will ever get easier – not in the skill portion but in the energy drain. I need more MP!

  • 7:19 pm
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