In the past 96 hours I’ve only slept 18 and I feel fine – but when this manic phase passes I’m going to crash and burn. A major advantage of having tons of energy is that you can get a lot done. The major disadvantage from manic energy is that it’s feeding off of your body’s reserves until there’s nothing left. And then you feel like shit – mentally, physically, and emotionally.

Yay for genetics!

Despite my mania, I haven’t done much writing in the past week and a half. Normally my manic phases cause me to drop four blogs and 30 pages of writing a day but instead my energy has been devoted to several projects that need to be done but aren’t as fulfilling as pumping out two months of writing in seven days.

A major positive of my manic phases is that they’re not as severe and so not as draining. The drawback to that is that I rarely experience the euphoria that more severe manics experience. AND my depressive cycle is severe rather than matching the manic in its “manic-light” nature. Both ends of the spectrum are a major deviation from my norm as I’m rather even keeled unless provoke for a long period of time. It’s like poking a turtle with a stick.

Now you might be thinking “How is that anything like poking a turtle with a stick? The turtle will just hole-up in his shell and continued poking won’t change his behavior.” And you’d be right if you weren’t so terribly wrong. See, if you poke a turtle long enough he’ll pop his head out and say “Son of a bitch! Seriously, kid – don’t you have anything better to do? And yes I can bloody talk! Get the hell away from me before God drops flamethrower-toting turtles from on high to punish your obviously bored self. Gravy on a baby duckling you’re annoying!”

And then the turtle will scratch an image of someone flipping you off in the dust and slowly move away – you’ll hear his grumbling for a while because turtles, despite being able to talk, are still very, very slow. They’re also sensitive about their speed and weight so don’t bring up either or they’re curse you out in ways you’ve never even considered – their vocabulary is extensive.

Turtles aside, I kind of feel like crawling into a shell and waiting to be poked until rabid madness sets in. The West is determined to tank itself using methods proven to tank countries in the former U.S.S.R., China, North Korea, and South and Central America. We’re also frequently putting the fox in charge of the hen house and wondering why all the chickens are either dead or in need of heavy doses of happy pills. Somehow we seem to think the dead chickens were depressed and committed suicide and that the still living are merely distraught or crazy. For some odd reason some of them keep acting like a predator is in the area…

Sotomayor – sexist, racist, and a good liar. But that’s okay because she’s also a wise Latina woman who knows better than the white men. After all, it was the stupid white men who wrote the Constitution she and her sponsors are so eager to edit for grammatical errors – I hear they made a lot of references to “freedom” when they meant to write “freedom to tax people.” The Bill of Rights also needs editing to update it for modernity – we can’t have all those stuffy, white guys in wigs telling us what to do. We’re far more evolved than they were – stupid, powdered monkeys! I’ve seen an early copy of the new Bill and here is the only right that didn’t get axed: the right to tax the crap out of people. It should be noted that there’s an asterik next to that sentence within the actual document and it leads down to an explanation that the government literally wants all your money and your crap too and that crap is loosely defined as all your stuff and your feces.

Apparently they like to roll in it and throw it at people they don’t like.

But back to Judge Soaracist. She IS going to be on the supreme court because she could literally shoot one of the white guys “interrogating” her this week and the Dems would applaud “justice in action” – obviously the execution was in order because Republicans share a party with former President Jr. McBlamedforeverything. We’re halfway through July and Bush is STILL getting blamed for things that a) Obama has done or b) Obama could change if he didn’t like what was going on. Congress practically fights over who gets to kiss his ass next so what he wants he gets. The Republican Party castrated itself before 2006 six so we shouldn’t be surprised by how impotent they are now. They can’t stop Obama from sitting a biased judge on our highest court.

Palin is still getting crucified for her comment about being able to see Russia from her house but Sotomayor can get away with something that’d tank a white man’s career if he made the statement in reverse. It upsets me a great deal that Conservatives and Republicans can say and/or do something stupid and the media frenzies like shark in bloody water but Liberals and Democrats receive a slap on the hand or a pass.

But here are the top 20 reasons you should disregard everything I say.
1. I’m male.
2. I’m not female.
3. I don’t want to be female.
4. I’m a Christian.
5. I have faith and I practice it…most of the time.
6. I’m descended from Europeans of the pale variety.
7. I’m a racist because I’m white which means I’m a Nazi – my nearly black hair, brown eyes, and mixed heritage are totally what they wanted!
8. I’m a sexist crazed with sex and power because I’m male. I’m only good for killing spiders, lifting things, and sending off to die in wars.
9. I’m an uneducated knuckle-dragger because I believe in God. I’m probably inbred too.
10. I’m not a Latina.
11. I’m very similar to those retards who founded this nation and died by the thousands in various wars to keep her free.
12. I’m rumored to be related to Nixon. This is not a joke.
13. I’m a baby-killer – once an Army brat, always a baby-killing, hippie-hating monster. Hippies don’t kill babies – the Razor Stork of Free Love does. His turn-ons are fishing, fishing, eating fish, eating babies, and hypocrisy.
14. I’m 25 and I haven’t had sex – which means I’m obviously a liar, a sex-fiend, and a future rapist.
15. I listen to Metal. And as my grandmother would tell you, that means I’m a liar, a sex-fiend, a future rapist, and forgiven for everything but the music for which I will burn eternally.
16. I make typos and I can’t place commas properly – this obviously means I’m lesbian trapped in a man’s body. Don’t question it – you’ll only hurt yourself when you stumble over my impenetrable fortress of logic! The guards are squirrels in carefully knitted sweaters!
17. I suffer from Depression which means, if you’ve watched the news, I’m going to go on a shooting spree any day now. I obviously don’t feel lethargic and like nothing matters when depression sets in.
18. I’m a capitalist. I obviously want women in the kitchen (if they’re making sandwiches for me I can keep enslaving non-whites), gays in the closet, and minorities mowing my lawn or acting as shoes.
19. I disagree with Obama which means I’m a bomb-making, right-wing extremist. Fortunately I pack my bombs with candy, unicorn giggles, and bunnies bent on hugging the cancer out of sick children.
20. Last but not least – I’m right handed. And seeing as I favor my right hand I must be a conservative and conservatives are all the spawn of a drunken fling between Ann Colter and Rush Limbaugh. Of course sex for conservatives consists of a handshake but they high-fived when Colter said she lost a pound and Limbaugh said he found it in a bottle of pain killers that he swallowed whole because he enjoys the taste of plastic and sorrow. Then they had sex because Colter’s favorite word is “sorrow” and then she swallowed him whole so she’d have the energy reserves to lay her clutch of eggs.

The End.

Tv has taught me many things – here are some snippets.
1. Men invent vacuums, women use them.
2. Women will talk about their birth control, their period, and their other “lady issues” ANYWHERE – but especially social gatherings.
3. Everyone in high school is supposed to look like they’re in their mid-20′s.
4. Women do all the housework – period.
5. Women are obsessed with their appearance.
6. Drinking beer causes attractive women to fight with each other…seductively?
7. Evolution is based on condom use
8. Mating involves beard growth and condom use
9. Our planet is going to explode in a giant fireball because you don’t drive a hybrid car.
10. White people are evil racists
11. Black people are all from the ghetto, talk like they’re from the ghetto, and even the educated and well spoken are just hiding their ghetto roots.
12. Latinos are gangsters or wise, female judges.
13. Asians own dry cleaning services, are part of organized crime, or own noodle shops – oh, and they’re also good at math.
14. Sex, sex, SEX, and SeX – woo!
15. Babies can talk and give good financial advice.
16. Geckos can talk and they sell insurance.
17. Lawyers want to help you!
18. Everything can and will kill you – it says so on the news.
19. The only intolerant, ignorant religion is Christianity – they’re so full of hate!
20. Every woman has a gay friend
21. Gays are more common than blacks – and 180% of gays are white males or hot white females. 226% of Lesbians are looking to make out in front of people and half of that percentage is also open to locking lips with men. Kisses for everyone*! *As long as you’re pretty*
22. The government is your friend, the military/paramilitary is your enemy
23. Scientists are loving gods.
24. Scientists are hateful deities.
25. In the future we will travel the stars and fuck every bipedal creature we find – nuke em, love em, or love then nuke them.
26. Scrawny girls always have the ability to kick a large, muscular man or monster’s ass.
27. Having no class and/or morals makes you a role model – it’s for the kids!
28. Cartoons suck nowadays
29. Shows directed at men involve sex, explosions, and sexy explosions
30. Shows targeted at women involve crying, sex, and then crying about sex.

Consider yourself educated.

What are the rocks saying? It isn’t madness to ask what the final messengers of God are saying. Madness to believe in God? Madness to doubt there’s a devil! The future and past come together like at the present and form a ring. Inside the ring there is only the material of its making – outside the ring, what? Does the ring float or is it suspended? How can either be explained?

What inspires the artist’s hand? A true artist is inspired by a love for his art or his art is inspired for the love of another – it can be both as well.

Truth can be found in the mouths of liars but they’ll never recognize the taste. Wars and rumors of wars – nothing’s change in 2000 years. Better weapons to deal with bigger numbers but the same thing that causes neighbors to quarrel sets princes at odds.

9/11/01 – Americans fear what’s outside.
11/11/08 – Americans fear what’s inside.

We traded our birthright for stew!

I saw a crow attack a hawk the other day…adding to the weirdness the hawk was standing next to the road.

I once saw an owl crossing a highway – on foot…or claw…whatever.

I just about stepped on a possum the other night – neither of us were amused.

I am babysitting two dogs and their favorite thing to do is rub their ass against my legs – no amount of cursing or moving away seems to change their behavior.

A chipmunk and I spent several minutes staring at each other – his excuse is a tiny brain but I’ve failed to find one for me. Besides how terribly cute a confused chipmunk is.

I hit a bird driving home. I’d feel terrible but its flight pattern involved cartwheels so it’s safe to assume that bird was a goner anyway.

I think it’s unfair for men to be compared to dogs – dogs are loyal.

There’s a reason why women are often compared to cats – it’s because if you mention them having dog-like qualities they immediately assume the worst. Trust me.

It was a compliment, dammit.

Comparing a woman to any animal is a bad idea – avoid fauna, wax poetic on the flora.

The American government is like a goldfish fed on taxes – it will never stop eating until you stop giving it food. It will also fail to remember that you fed it only moments after its gorged itself. The American government has asked me to inform you that you haven’t fed it lately and it’s sad.

America has a weight problem – it’s government has become very fat and heavy-handed.

The American government is like a squirrel – it collects nuts and has a tiny brain.

Europe is a like a cat – ungrateful, snooty, and fond of crapping on other people’s stuff.

A man-eating tiger would starve in D.C. – there are only snakes there.

A taxpayer has a similar relationship to his/her government as a cat owner has to his/her pet – he/she may own the cat but it’s the cat who is fed, attended to, and petted. Another similarity lies in that abuse pet leads to jail time even if the cat totally had it coming. Oh, and I almost forgot to mention that both are destructive of other people’s property.

Parasites and governments are irritating and found everywhere because they go where their food is.

Politicians and dung beetles are fond of…

Unlike geese, politicians don’t mate for life. They also can’t be fed on grass which sucks because it’d be so much cheaper then a 22k night out with the wife.

I am like a monkey in a pinata, hoping the children don’t break through with the sticks. This final bit of wisdom is brought to you by Kung Pow: Enter the Fist.

I’m almost free of a great stressor in my life – hallelujah! Two months of stress was two too many.

Now I can go back to contemplating what the future holds. The time of violence is creeping forward and the time of peace is ending – turn, turn, turn. World War I – they said it couldn’t happen. Everyone could see that wars had ceased to be profitable and economies were interlinked – it would only lead to mutual destruction. We still fought that war and there were no winners. The horrors of WWI made people proclaim that there would never again be war after the horrors suffered in those five years. Two decades later, World War II was already in swing – millions more dead and nuclear weapons unleashed. The clouds gather again. The portents are bad.

What is my generation slated for? I fear that it’s a bloodletting unlike anything Americans have had to endure in half a century. My Grand Uncle is only in the grave two years and I’m wondering if my boots will taste the soils of Europe. Will I lie with his friends in foreign grounds or return to a normal, American Dream where I wake every night in a cold sweat and cursing the memories that haunt my nights? And our weapons are so much more effective than those used in WWII…we have recoil-less, automatic shotguns for Pete’s sake!

When I was a boy, I dreamed of war. When I became a man, I dreamed that I’d never see one.

Here’s hoping I’m 4F!

I think Obama’s “Shock and Horror” campaign against thinking minds is beginning to crater their ability to be surprised by any depth of stupidity. He makes the follies of the Bush years into fond memories of when our country was led by a retard instead of a mad genius (it doesn’t matter how smart you are if you’re out of touch with reality). There’s talk of a second stimulus – we’ve shot ourselves in one foot, why not make a matching pair?

Michael Jackson continues to receive worship. Let’s assume for a moment he wasn’t a perverted weirdo, why the hell was/is he news? People die – and his death was only unnatural in that it came a bit early. He may have been famous but he wasn’t the only famous person to die that day, week, or month – a day of coverage was overkill. Instead we’re into a week fanservice with such outrageous claims as “he’s directing the choir in heaven” – oh yes, fuck Bach! No-talent hack! Of all the deaths in the past week, MJ’s is only a distraction from important events and conflicts unfolding the world over.

So how many people have heard that the President of Brazil blamed the current economic crisis on white people with blue eyes? I hope he was being facetious. Otherwise…yay, racism! It comes in a multitude of flavors but all of them taste like shit!

Sarah Palin resigned – whoop-de-do! The media seems surprised – I’m only surprised she didn’t flip the cameras off and say “go fuck yourselves, you child-molesting sexists.” I’m not gung-ho about Palin but she receives sympathy from me because she’s a) a favorite whipping-boy for the media and left-wing fear/hatemonger and b) she a smart, powerful woman who took a lot of shit for being a mother and a conservative. Apparently women’s-lib only extends to leftists – feel free to treat conservative women as uneducated, second-class citizens. Sexism – another delicious flavor brought to you by Bullshit Co, “We’ll build your future out of anything you’ll swallow”

Newsflash: the reason Christians are paranoid and whiney about being called ignorant, backwards, and/or evil is because for centuries and the world-over they’ve been persecuted and executed for their beliefs. If you think a black man is nervous around white cops in the rural south, imagine what collective angst centuries of being slaughtered for thinking wrong brings. Geese are stupid, stupid creatures but they’re useful in that they’re territorial and loud – the Romans used them as an early warning system. Think of Christians as your Freedom geese – all that honking should be an indication that the enemy is at the gates, not that your geese have forgotten it’s nighttime and you’re trying to sleep.

Yay for hating on religious groups – it tastes like ignorance! Ignorant hatred – a flavor that has stood the test of time. And for another taste sensation, try adding a little Hypocrisy to your Ignorance for that self-righteous but blatantly wrong experience – yum!

Yes, believing that “God did it” is beyond comprehension – let us all marvel at our great and ordered universe which resulted from a whole lot of ??? exploding for some reason or another. Wait! That must be what the Jihadists are doing with their bombs – they’re trying to blow us into tiny universes filled with virgins! It’s so insane it must be brilliant! Praise Science!

Nobody should be surprised that taxes and spending are going up – the Democrats are in charge. The only thing Democrats hate throwing money at is the U.S. military and they’ll even feed that dog just to keep the conservative pups from yapping “traitors” for four years. I’ve heard rumors that we’re going to start patrolling our turbulent border with Mexico using unarmed troops – this is genius! When those heavily armed criminals see we’re not even carrying knives they’ll think we’ve invented Terminators and flee for their lives! That or they’ll think we’re insane and want no part of us.

They should bet on insanity – we did elect a professional liar on a platform of governmental honesty. I’m laughing so hard right now! Isn’t it all delightfully ridiculous? Apparently the only population not being aborted in America is the Suckers – one is born every minute!

honk-honk, folks – invaders at the gate.

I’m having one of those weeks where people’s myopia inspires dejected silence rather than rebuttal. I’m not sure whether I’m overwhelmed or exhausted by how many topics I could rightly become indignant about – so many options it suffocates the brain and squelches the heart.

Obama’s “If it ain’t broke, hit it with a hammer till it is and then hit it till it’s fixed” program continues to generate frustration. I think I’m past the initial shock that he’d propose and people would swallow such ideas and I’ve moved on to letting my mouth hang open in disbelief. The media isn’t calling him on much even when he or one of his appointees give them ammunition. We’ve moved past the patients running the madhouse – the patients have lobotomized themselves and morons run the show.

Hard economic times tend to lead to wars – big wars. On one hand, people are desperate and will swallow anything. On the other, people are angry and looking for change (and/or someone to blame/hate).

Don’t doubt that the devil is laughing his ass off – the world is built on lies. He’s the proud papa of everything false – his finger is in every batch of coolaid.

I’ve seen a lot of hatred directed at Christians lately. I shouldn’t expect less, they crucified Christ, but when Christianity is singled out as a great plague it disappoints me – it shows a lack of reason and respect. A dislike of certain Christians is reasonable – hostility bordering on hatred toward Christians without any qualifiers is disgustingly ignorant. And yet I see it time and again – unapologetic, onesided diatribes against one of the most diverse groups in the world. Most people misuse the word “tolerance” but even in its correct usage Christians aren’t being tolerated by the West and they’re persecuted if not executed in Africa, the Middle East, and the East.

Not all atheists are arrogant pricks, I actually know a few I’m quite fond of, but there are also some who are both arrogant and not nearly as intelligent as they believe themselves to be (ironically, I made about 20 typos getting that sentence out…I think I’m getting sleepy). And listening to the atheists who like to hear themselves talk are people lacking the education or maybe even the brain power to notice the obvious flaws and historical inaccuracies in their arguments – the two groups then whip each other into a Christian-bashing frenzy.

And I find myself sighing because I’m unsure where to begin my rebuttal with so many points of attack. I also find myself discouraged because a) our education system has failed these people and b) I can’t get into a deep, philosophical debate because they can’t even get their history right. And yet I’m somehow the one getting pegged and uneducated and ignorant of how the world works…

I’m not ignorant of how the world works – I’m disgusted by it. I’m disgusted by it because your measure of success is similar to a dung beetle sitting atop the biggest pile of crap he’s ever rolled up – he might be proud of it but it’s still a pile of shit to me. I’m far from stupid and most of the Christians I know are of a similar level of intellect and character – people any country should be proud to have as citizens. When people attack Christians they’re a) bashing people I know don’t fit the charges and b) investing capitol in stereotypes that generate closed minds and cold hearts.

The pursuit of truth is so 19th century.

I’ve been reading “1984″ by George Orwell – our writing style is eerily similar. I’ve been told by several people that my writing reminds them of his – which I’ve had the chance to confirm. It’s also flattering because Orwell was compared to Jonathan Swift. Wouldn’t mind collecting a comparison to C.S. Lewis but I won’t turn my nose up at the comparison to Orwell.

Here’s hoping, yes?

Anywho, trying not to let my natural inclination towards paranoia crop up because of the ever-increasing government control and surveillance being reported right and left. *hugs knees and rocks back and forth* I HATE censorship so when people start talking about what can or can’t be said I get edgy. If someone says something stupid or hateful, ignore them – censoring their words doesn’t change their hearts. Confront them with a valid argument, if you must, but speaking with fools is wasted effort. Our society has failed to police itself and has instead given increasing control of our daily lives to the government – lazy minds are destroying our freedoms.

Bah – enjoy your slavery, fools.

Received a smile whilst on a walk the other night. I was struck by how much I appreciated such a simple gesture, given in passing by a total stranger. It certainly didn’t hurt that she was cute but it recalled to my mind other times when I’d run into strangers and exchange simple pleasantries that made me feel more human. A little courtesy goes a long way – a lesson lost on so many. A terrible pity.

There was a time when I hated how atypical I tend to be but now I glory in it. Many jarring transitions in this post, hmm? Although it eventually morphed into accepting myself, it originally started with hating what everyone else was doing. A decade ago I would have sworn up and down that I was neither a rebel nor one to buck against much. I think that part of it was my parents never gave me a reason to rebel – none of their rules struck me as pointless or heavy-handed. Having left home, I’ve encountered people and institutions who weren’t as responsible as my parents in their exercise of power.

And the quickest way to set my jaw is to clamp down on me. Ask me to do anything reasonable and I’ll probably do it without complaint. When challenged or attacked, I dig in my heels. A little respect goes a long way with me – unfortunately I often expect respect in return for my kindness and/or respect given which sees me exploited. In regards to social norms, I have no interest in complying with things I consider stupid or pointless. When it comes to scientific or philosophical arguments, I want a good case to be made before I’ll accept it – “your beliefs suck” or “it’s a fact – deal with it” aren’t convincing. Give me a reason to dress as you dress. Give me a reason to believe as you believe. Show me why my beliefs are wrong. Show me something valuable – don’t you think I’d gladly accept an offering of truth?

What I receive instead are insults, circular logic, or empty beliefs – I’m unwilling to swallow sand.

The media doesn’t give a crap that our nation is being run by liars and thieves but heaven forbid one of those thieves have an affair when marriage in the West is little more than a joke nowadays. Will somebody please hook me up with the magical cool-aid Obama has been offering so I can slip into the comforting nightmares my dreaming mind manufactures? I guess if push comes to shove I can just bash my head against a wall until the thinking stops.

Bush will never be “America’s Top Buffoon” until Jimmy Carter is dead – him and all of Congress.

“Man will ultimately be governed by God or by tyrants.” Benjamin Franklin

“We’re in a war, dammit. We’re going to have to offend somebody!” John Adams.

Quotes are fun.

What is truth? A faithless generation seeks a sign. Even the rocks declare the glory of God but they’re mined for dead things. The dead climb back into their graves and call it living. It’d be wonderful if it were meaningless but it’s all so meaningful.

Empty. What’s the point? Dust is dust, ashes from ashes – nothing. You come into being screaming, you wail for a time, and then silence – the crying are haunted by your spirit whether it is or not. Thanatos not Libido, Thanatos over Libido. Return and be what you’re becoming – death.

Ingratitude – history is thankless that we created it and we return the favor by ignoring the lessons it offers. The new is better and beauty is our glory – improvement, evolution. Forgetting in thought but always remembering in action – nothing new. There’s nothing new.

What is good? A long definition for a short word and both are meaningless, empty. The ultimate argument of kings decides but which king argues is a fruit flies’ life. Endless mortality. If mortal we are. Like from like or lesser to greater – still the same. Dust is dust, ashes from ashes. Decay.

Veiled explanations, blind sight. Pearls before swine in suits, carrying calculators and sniffing about the ground for the glasses that dropped from their snouts. Bifocals or trifocals in place, they crudely calculate the measure of worth and find it lacking. Fancying wings, they take flight for a moment with the help of a cliff and running start. Devil driven. Remembering flight, they reach the heavens on clipped wings, upheld on a current of bodies.

Join me for a drink. Drink deeply and let the heady-foam tickle your mouth and the taste delight your tongue before cooling your throat. Drink with me. Drink! Have another and another, there’s no bill! The tab was paid by the one who picked the port. Drink with me!

Drink deeply of the future, drink deeply of the past, and drink to now for now is what fills your cup. Drink deeply – drink the cup prepared for you. Drink it and see your chains. Drink it and know. Take the fruit of the fields and see. See the heady foam. See what bubbles forth from the winepress of wrath. Laugh with me and drink – tomorrow is always coming, never here, and then we die.

“We’re losing jobs like a children’s party clown with Tourette syndrome” Dennis Miller.